Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Dancing with fire

Ang ating kababaihan nagsisiliparan patungo sa ibang bansa saan sa Japan
Matulungan lamang mai-ahon sa kahirapan ang pamilyang umaasa sa kanila lamang
Ilan sa kanila ang umuwing luhaan inabuso, minaltrato at saka sinaktan
Tigilian na ang ganitong paraan nang pamumuhay ng ating kababaihan, masisi ba sila o
dapat kawaan kasalanan ba nila o kasalanan ng bayan

Francis M. --- Nilamon ng Sistema

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On my way home from a mall I was surprised to see three ladies wearing green. It shocked me, good thing I changed my shirt because people would think we came from the same cult. Well I wouldn't feel too bad about it because they all look beautiful but the only problem is they seemed like those people who worked in Japan. I don't have any grudge against those people and I rather not use the term we usually call them because I don't think it is fair for us to brand them like that. In fact I should thank them because I finally gained my long awaited "inspiration" to write or blab or however people view it (I don't really care much, if you want to know the truth) .

"Masisi ba sila o dapat kawaan kasalanan ba nila o kasalanan ng bayan?"

One of the biggest question we are faced and one of the questions that have been answered many times yet very little has been done to fix it. I'm not that certain why I feel that something for them. I feel that we are the same in one way. I'm a budding nurse and sooner or later we'll be backed up by the same reasons we left this country.

Both of us are dancing with fire. Life afterall is a complex dance for all of us. We are all damned to follow its varying rhythm and tempo. And this is the step we must follow. By doing these we gain money and little by little our dreams are formed. But dancing with fire comes with a price and it is an expensive one that money can't even be traded to regain it. WE are also subjected to an enormous risk because the fire that assembled our lives is also the one capable of dismantling it.

I guess mine is a different story that is not worth comparing to them but the single thread that binds us give me shivers of sympathy. I openly admit that it is not empathy cause I know and understand little of what they feel or think.

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Emo dic

Pain

A highly subjective sensation.
A sign of growth.
A threat of vulnerability.
A feeling of humanity.
A counterpart of happiness.
A source of inspiration.
A debilitating disease.

Expression,
exclamation,
comma, period.
Question mark?

Nothing
Everything, anything.
Something.
Someone, only one, everyone,
No one

Complicated.
Simply
Life.

Different

I completely abandoned my old self. I am a very diffirent person from what I used to be 2-3 years ago. I have metamorphosized into a creature who is least of what I am before. I became a happy and carefree butterfly.

There is nothing new about it. I have changed before. This is not something that I didn't saw coming. I wanted it.

A lot of people told me that cruelty, pain, suffering and the other negatives in life is the expressway to success (if not the only road to it) and I have believed them. Or I should rather say I believed them before.

I can't find the words (yet) to explain or describe these things that's why this things seems to branch from one topic to another tree. I'll probably continue next time. I have been thinking about this since the sem started but I still I can't completely grasp the answers (or questions) that can lead me to understand this.

I am confused but happy.

Again I am happy. I am just happy and everything is the reason for it.